The Way I Am

Meagan Esler

| Jun 26, 2012

My 16-year-old son and I spent the day together recently and decided to head out for burgers at lunchtime.  Sitting in a rather exposed booth at a restaurant, we chatted and began eating.  I wasn't really thinking about anything, just enjoying the rare moment of hanging out with my sweet son, when he remarked, "I'd feel so awkward if I had to do that." I asked him what he meant and actually looked around to see what he was talking about.  Then it hit me, as he mimed taking an injection and said, "Having to take shots in front of random people all the time." Moments before, I had taken a shot in my hip, capped my syringe, and popped it back into my handbag without even thinking about it.  After 18 years of shots, it's practically instinct for me.  

I know he meant it with a good heart. He wasn't embarrassed by me, but, rather, worried about how he'd feel if he had diabetes. I explained to him that I used to feel so awkward about taking my shots that I would literally hide from people to do it. But eventually I realized that I had done nothing wrong and that I am not ashamed of having diabetes. I also told him that diabetes is a part of me and will be forever.  "It's the way I am," I said.  He nodded and returned to talking about a school friend of his as we finished our burgers.    

Still, his comment made me wonder about how other people in my family feel about my shots.  I decided to ask for complete and utter honesty from my husband.  My question to him was "How do you feel for me when we are out in public and I take a shot?"  My husband told me that he doesn't think anything about it.  "It's just a part of who you are," he told me. "You have green eyes and diabetes."  When I pressed him about how he felt when he first met me, he said, "The only time I felt weird was when we were on our first date and I tried pushing you to have some of the super-sugary coffee drink I was having.  When you said you had diabetes, I regretted having pressured you.  Now I know better, and I don't think about it at all." It makes me happy to know that he looks at diabetes as just another part of me, like my eye color, and not at all like I have something wrong with me.  

When I was 18, I never would have taken a shot in front of other people.  I was mortified that I was different.  Today I feel a sense of strength when I take my shots.  I know that I'm different, but honestly, different isn't always a bad thing.  We are different in that we need to be brave and strong each and every day, with no breaks.  I still remember those early days of trying to fit in with the other teens, but now that I'm all grown up, I think that being ordinary is highly overrated.  

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Posted by Anonymous on 26 June 2012

I've been a Type 1 for 34 years (just a month or so for my 35th milestone). We do get to the point of 'not thinking' about it, I could totally relate to being out and just doing it without thought. I too have posed that question to my husband, and his response was the same. It's just who we are, and what we do --

Posted by Anonymous on 28 June 2012

You are right to do your shot without hiding it. You have done nothing wrong and it is absolutely necessary for you! When my son got T1D at 8 years old, we always did the injection openly and never hid them. He is now 14 and he injects in front of his friends who are so used to it, that they don't pay a whit of notice. Likewise when we are out, he will inject at a restaurant or wherever. Thankfully no-one has ever made him feel like he should hide it either.... That is probably thanks to you & others who have led the way.

Posted by Anonymous on 28 June 2012

I was diagnosed on 7 May 2004 and wanted to tell my family. However, my Mother was going through tough times and I said nothing. I "outed" myself to my younger brother after he talked about being a type 2 his self. I asked questions that only another diabetic would have. My Mother was quite upset at me for not telling her immediately! I wish I'd had the courage to tell my Uncle Jim because I would have enjoyed talking type 2 with him; I found out he was type 2 when I read his obituary.

At first, I sought hidden places to check my blood. One evening at work, I was horrified to see that three people were talking behind me and had seen me test. Since then, I've gotten more open and simply test my blood where ever I am sitting. I am work now and will test in about 25 minutes. We have a type 1 at work who openly tests her blood and injects. If it's noon and Cherri is in the break room, be prepared to see a little blood. Woopee!

While I hope I can stay on 3 differnt pills and off the needle, I hope that I can accept public injections with the same patache you do. After all, this is all about our health so the sqeamish can mind their own business!

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